Leavin for Bali

Me goin to Bali tomorrow morning. So the next time I blog, I would either be in the hotel in Bali, or at a lounge in Singapore's airport, or in a lounge at Bali's airport, OR, back at home on Sunday. No promises!

haha

gonna miss you ^^

3 words

ACCEPTED INTO UWC

Why doesn't Singapore have stress relief???

Some Pics Over The Weeks

Some pictures from Cats :P CAMERAS WERE ALLOWED OKAY. OMG. JIALAT. Was stuck with my horrible HP camera =.= GAH
The beginning :)

The orange blur is the RUM TUM TUGGER!! *faints* AAAAAAHHHH!!! Hot. LOL



Oswald... on the evening of Keren's party... at my lobby while waiting for the taxi to pick us up... He was just standin there stoning away...Okay, that stupid floor sign really ruined the picture =.=

OMG. I CAUGHT THIS FAT LIZARD WITH SARAH LAST WEDNESDAY! Hahahaha!! DAMN COOL! We managed to trap it and it came running right into my hand! Haha! SUCKER. (that's my hand!!) Man were the other girls SCREAMING XD

Btw, many thanks for the DELICIOUS cupcakes!! :D AAAAHHHH!! I WANT MORE!

THE WEIRD gay guy I saw. omg... Total disgrace to men @_@

And the next few are of lil Samuel :D MAJOR CUTENESS!!



And Candid shot of the month... IVAN! lol (he's gonna kill me if he sees this up online. Or he might just send Christy to do it. Hahaha XD
HAHA! Well, he was watchin tv. Christy was sittin in between us and I just simply reached over with my hp, and just nice he looked over - *SNAP!* MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! XD Man, him and his hairy legs. LOL

Singapore Choir, BEAT THIS

This was my church choir's performance at the chinese service on Good Friday at Expo the other day. Omg. it was FREEZING, we were TIRED from the first Indo session =.= so of course, this was much worse quality. And that's my pastor (Stephen Tong) there conducting :)

Lonely With Me

I dont mind eating in a busy cafe by myself, reading the paper
And I dont mind drivin down the 101 alone with my thoughts, turning them over
I find myself sitting in the corner alone in a crowd, while their havin a goodtime
And sometimes I even want to turn off the phone for a while, and think of a good rhyme
I guess you could call me a lonesome soul, now here I am thinking
Maybe one day Ill find someone to know, someone who knows me like you did
I was a different person before, but now that Ive lost you Im just not the same
You were the only one, who could be lonely with me

You were the only one who knew all my foolish routines, and stayed with me anyway
When I was with you I knew that it was ok to be me, no need to be ashamed
I dont remember all the wildest places weve gone, oh its nothin fancy
I only remember all the little things we used to say, when we were alone
I guess you could call me a lonesome soul, now here I am thinking
Maybe one day Ill find someone to know, someone who knows me like you did
I was a different person before, but now that Ive lost you Im just not the same
You were the only one, who could be lonely with me

Sure, relieve their stress. What about ours???

Went to see lil Samuel last night :D (not the one from rmj). SO CUTE. Omg... so tiring to play with lil kids o.o He's 6, and HE HAS A WHOLE LOTTA ENERGY. omg... Today, after dinner, went to his house again. Then I think he got too hyper after eating, that he puked in the lift on the way up to his house =.= Gosh. And he puked again after coming through his door. Goodness. Then I played bubbles with him. Omg... darn tired =.= He might come to Singapore to study for Sec 1 o.o Well, I'd be 22 by then *gasp* And he might slowly start getting taller than me. And then I can be his elder sister. Hahaha... *smirk*

I have a feeling we're remain as good friends :D

Hmm, should I try getting a tan when I go to Bali? DEFINITELY gonna go swimming, and buying those tiki tiki stuff :D TEEHEE!! I love the native Indo stuff! BATIK! YES! I SHALL BUY SOME BATIK! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Hand-made ones! Not the stupid printed ones you find in the market =.= Those are crap.

Probably gonna come back with loads of pimples. Coz it's FRIGGIN HOT THERE!! 30+ degrees Celsius. omg. *die*

Hmm, I had my confirmation interview thingy today... SCAAARRYYYYYY... I hope I passed!! :S

Happenings

1. BRONZE FOR DRAMA SYF *runs off and cries*

2. Chem O lvl SPA yesterday was... easy? haha... oh man... Skill 3 will definitely SUCK.

3. Will know about my application to UWC latest by the 4th of May @_@ Panic...

4. Will go to Bali next Thursday night and will be back on that Sunday morning
will miss ya :)
5. I MISS MY iPOD TOUCH. OMG. NO MUSIC = NO LIFE. HENCE, gotta make my own *sings sings sings*

What Ever Happened to the Good Old Days?

The Moffats. A band of 4 brothers, the eldest Scott, and the triplets, Dave, Bob and Clint. Scott and the triplets are less than 1 year apart, and they had started performing as young as when Scott was 8. They split after a concert after their 3rd album :S

In 1992/1993


This was in 2002 or so... There's no html for this vid, so you gotta go to the website itself to watch it :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejLa2Zrd2e4

Surrender

I give up. Not gonna worry. Not gonna think or worry about anything. I'm just gonna maintain my social life and hopefully, improve on my dropping grades. Good gosh.

I'm SOOO gonna fail a few subjects this time.

(Un)Fictional

My english homework happened to be...

4. Conflict.
How could she? She knew. She knew what I felt for her, a boy like me with such a sensitive heart. She had broken it before, but she just had to do it again. Why? Does she find joy in torturing me like this? Or am I just so blinded by love and attached to her that I would not bear to leave her be.

Last Saturday, Grace had gone for the birthday party of a certain church friend. This friend of hers, Keren, had introduced a boy to her, Timothy. They clicked almost immediately. According to what Grace told me that night, he was suave, outgoing, very sociable, and definitely charming. I was sure, compared to me, he was the prince in shining armor, while I was the ugly dork watching from the sidelines.

The conversation with her over MSN was going fine until she started filling in the details. He had sought for more than her name, a handshake and her phone number. I recalled that when I had just known Grace online through a classmate, I had to ask for it only days later, and I had only met her 4 years after. The fact that she was falling for a boy that she had known for less than 24 hours, probably had something to do with the great first impression Timothy gave her, which I failed to do.

Grace even dreamt about dancing with Timothy that night. She had blogged about it on her website. It was just there for the whole world to read, including a poor soul like me. Why did I continue reading? I had basically given myself in to a slow process of silent heartbreak.

At that moment, I began to realize. Why do I care so much? I am not even 16 yet. I am not even sure whether this is love. What really is important in my life at the moment? Maybe, her presence in my everyday life had blurred my sense of priority.

I felt a sudden rush of negative emotions, anger, jealousy, sadness, and frustration. I was angry that she had treated me like one of her toys. I was jealous that she would reject a close friend whom she had known for almost 5 years, and would accept someone she barely knew. I was disappointed at this comparison, and frustrated that I had not done enough to win her heart.

On Sunday, I ignored her for the whole day. She deserved it. I gave her so much of my time and attention, but what she gave me in return was… nothing. I have confessed my feelings to her clearly. It was obvious that she knew. She must have noticed that I had not spoken to her at any time that day. I saw her online, and she must have noticed I was not. She ended up asking my classmate whether I was online. Darn, she has too many connections. In those moments, I have never felt so confused. I could not stand the conflict within me. My mind was telling me to just ignore her, and really think about what was really important in my life. And I should just pray for strength to leave this childish love of mine. However, my heart was saying otherwise. I should just talk to her and forget what she had done, but she had not apologized.

In the end, my mind won my body. I signed out of my account and isolated myself in my room to think. Just as suddenly, I received a text message from Grace, “I know you probably hate every inch of my right now, and I don’t think it would help if I said I’m terribly sorry.” At that moment, I just wanted to reply with a message saying that I had forgiven her and everything was all right. I slapped myself hard at that thought. I really had to stop being so weak! She was probably just trying to make me feel sorry for her. She had no idea how much she hurt me this time.

It took me some time to think of a sensible and reasonable reply. I had to tell her and myself that I needed some time away from her to decide for myself what really is most important to me in life. Now I pray that I make the right decision. I pray that this close friendship of mine would never change, and I pray that I control myself, and win over the conflict in my heart.

I Hope You Dance

Apology

Sorry I got too carried away.

Sorry I did it again.

Sorry you just ripped your heart out.

I deserve to be ignored.

I deserve to be blocked.

I deserve to be hated by you for the rest of my life

Lastly, I'm sorry.

Dream

She wakes up and she's at a restaurant. There were many people... all their faces were just blurs.
"where am I?" she asked herself.
Somehow, she just knew it was a party, and someone is walking over to her.
On the open floor, couples were dancing. People were dancing. Jumping to the beaty music.
And as the song ended, the people clapped. The mood had set in. Now a romantic song is played over the speakers.
The person reached out his hand towards her, a request for a dance?
Reluctantly, she agreed and put her hand in his.
She looked around for her friends whom she came with but did not see them. Around her, people were encouraging her to go for it. Go and dance. She went along, her face blushing uncontrollably.
The dance was awkward at first. She kept looking down at her feet, at her dress swooshing around her legs. Her arms were stiff, like she has not done it before.
She opened her mouth to speak but nothing comes out. "This is like my syf competition... I had to dance..." She wanted to say. But why didn't she say it?
She let him guide her around the dance floor. There was an awkward step where she had to go under his arm, and they got tangled. She quickly let go, embarrassed.

And she wakes up. It was a dream. A lovely and memorable one :) How is it that she could have dreamt of a guy that she had met and known for less than 24 hours?

A Moment of Bliss

We talked about drama

Asked for my name before I was pulled away for something XD

You taught me a complicated way of getting a handshake? lol

Did a number of too many high-fives with me. LOL

Asked for my number :O

Shouted "bye Drama friend!" before I left :)

And yes, We both think Hannah Montanah SUCKS. Lol...

Polka-dot tie! I shoulda worn my polka dot flats. then we would have matched.

Keren, I wouldn't wish you happy birthday just yet, coz it's 2 weeks early. Just use the present XD and I don't think you or any of your friends are gonna read this either. hahaha XD But I was REALLY glad I was there. If not, I wouldn't have met Marie again. And I wouldn't have known him either. hahaha

Ahh, how good it was to feel that slight moment of connection of some sort. It's like, my books coming true... sort of... in a way. Aiyah. She said he liked someone else anyway. None of my business. Knew him for less than 5 hours!! lol Maybe it's just a "drama-people" thing. We're just very sociable maybe? Maybe too sociable in his case. hahaha

Well... just glad today happened :) to me at least XD

CATS!!!

I WATCHED CATS! And my mum booked single seats so we would sit near the front. Row C. And apparently, They removed the first 2 rows of seats @_@ So I WAS SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT! OMG. DAMN COOL. SIBEI COOL MAN!! lol

I could see and HEAR them all XD AHAHHAHAHA!! AWESOOOMEEEE!!!! AND BEST OF ALL, CAMERAS ALLOWED. But I didn't bring my damn cam =.=

Anyhow, for those who are gonna watch, bring a camera, and BE THERE during the intermission. You're in for a special show! hahaha XD

I managed to get into contact with 3 of the cats! All 3 of them were men =.= Alamak. BUT DAMN COOL LAH. I mean, really, they are soo... catsy! XD 1st one was crawling across the floor in front of me. then he stopped and tilted his head as he saw my flats. (they're black converse flats with white polka dots). And he started usin his finger to poke at the dots! OMG DAMN CUTE!!! XD

Then the Mungojerrie character was crawling across also... and he rubbed his head against my knee. You know, that kind that cats do when they purr? Hahaha

And the 3rd one was from the Mr Mistoffelees character :D It was near the ending, and he reached out and his fingers gently caressed my elbow. You know that kind of ballet pose where their hands look so soft and gentle as they raise it slowly? So yeah, then I touched his hand XD Hahaha.

THEY'RE ALL DAMN BLOODY TALENTED! My 2 fave characters: Mr Mistoffelees and The Rum Tum Tugger! WOOOOO!!!

Sports Day

Today, was Sports Day. Duh...

1. My house's cheerleading team actually dropped to third. And overall, my house is in 6th place. omg...

2. Sobbed.

3. Shouted at a teacher. Miss Pek? Is that how you spell it? Coz the cheerleaders had to clean the stage. It's thanks to Joseph House (orange) that the hall's stage was covered with confetti =.= And we had to clean it. And well, since Catherine House (yellow) won cheerleading this year, well, I don't blame them if they don't wanna clean up the stage. But I can say that every member of my house's cheerleading team was on their knees picking up the pieces with their hands. And guess what, Joseph House cheerleaders just friggin WALKED OFF THE STAGE. WTH MAN. And I was so pissed. And since a lot of my house's cheerleaders were crying, Miss Pek came over and told us it's okay, and we should stop tearing. And I said,"It's not fair!." She said,"what's not fair?" I said,"Why is it that we have to stay and clean up the stage when Joseph House themselves don't clean up? They just friggin walked off the stage! *points to the group exiting the hall*" Miss Pek blew the whistle in their direction and told them to come back to the stage. Of course, they didn't. And a few seconds later, the teacher told the remaining cheerleaders who were cleaning up, to drop everything in their hands back onto the stage floor for the Joseph House cheerleaders to clean up.

4. Sobbed some more. I mean, I had to lie to my mum about this. She doesn't know I'm in cheerleading. I went through that crap and we get 2nd?? WTH MAN. Joseph House cheerleading was good just due to the CONFETTI. URGH. they don't even have POMPOMS.

5. Catherine House COPIED THE INTRO OF MARIE HOUSE'S ROUTINE OF 2006!!! Exact same 2 songs, and the idea of the steps are basically the same here!!! NO FAIR. BOZOS.

6. Sprinted 200m for the relay. Omg... gonna die already...

7. Did a few stations of the NAPFA thing. I'm DEFINITELY gonna retake my shuttle run. I can make it to 10 seconds. HUMPH.
Standing Broad Jump - 179cm (WOO . Furthest I've EVER gone @_@)
Shuttle Run - 11.2seconds
Sit & Reach - 42cm (hehe... can't get very far with this one)
Inclined Pull-ups - 20 (My feet were slipping. Ask me and I'll explain to you)
Sit Ups - 40 (Mr Francis told us to stop at 33... but I just wanted to do more lah)

8. Gonna watch Cats today at Esplanade :P

Worked Up

1. I thought I lost Sunthari's pompoms today during prac. Omg... nearly broke down crying. Apparently, Carissa had thought those were hers and wrote her name on it. PHEW. Luckily, I realized they were Sun's.

2. 2 days to the competition, and we have a pair of pompoms missing =.= WTH MAN. (btw, this is an intra-school competition...)

3. Kinamatics is KILLING ME. (the A.Math one... not Physics. I don't take physics.)

4. I'm gonna friggin screw up for E.Hist and SS lah... stupid. Gonna fail both papers. URGH. And I don't see a friggin improvement in my chinese. How odd, even though my grandmother WAS directly from China. She was a teacher for goodness sake. And she had to pass away before I started takin my chinese a lil bit more seriously.

5. Patrick Ng was really quiet today during math lesson. He didn't teach a single thing, only did the workings of our previous hmrk out on the board :S And when class ended, he just left without a word. We didn't even greet him >< Man... I hope it wasn't anything we did!

6. I'm reading The Time Traveller's Wife :D Sweet story! aaaahh... if only love is that beautiful. Hmm, I've been hearing about the White Tiger a lot these few weeks. First from Zong, then from this Scottish guy who came to speak in my church, then from Samuel last Saturday o.o Maybe I SHOULD take a look at that book... Maybe after I'm done with my current one. Haha :P

7. Mum confiscated my iPod touch coz I was playin games with it too much... That Tower Bloxx 3D thing is ADDICTIVE. Maybe coz I bought the full version :S Dang. So yeah... no music. I'm DYING EVERYDAY. omg. Gotta repeat the songs in my phone OVER AND OVER AND OVER again when I do my hmrk. It's like a slow torture... GAH...

8. Learning A Beautiful Mess - Jason Mraz, on guitar. Stupid classical guitar. I wish I have an acoustic... sigh. Maybe next year? Or the year after that... i dunno. I can NEVER learn the plucking like how JM did it... So I gotta make my own strumming pattern :S Dang. E, G#m, F#m, A, B...

"You've got the best of both worlds... you're the kind of girl who can take down a man, and lift him back up again. You are strong but you're needy. Humble but you're greedy. And based on your body language and shouted cursive I've been reading. Your style is quite selective, but your mind is rather reckless. And I guess it just suggests that this is just what happiness is... What a beautiful mess, this is... It's like, pickin up trash in dresses. Well it, kind of hurts when the kind of words you write, kinda of turn, themselves into knives..." :P

Composin

Is this guy talented or what? He composed this song by himself. WOOO!! ASIAN DUDE! Hahahaha XD He's composed quite a few songs, you guys can go take a look and have a hear :) And he isn't one of those amateurs who go off tune once in awhile. He also did some covers.. I wonder why he doesn't have a contract o.o Singindork888 that's his name XD hahaha...





I'm asking him to come up with a tune for the words you wrote :)

A Poem

Something I wrote a few months back...

Black Rose
Coming home from school
Then begins the fool
She throws her bag on the floor
And starts heading for the door

"Home in your haven" they say
But for this girl, she's gotta pay
Daily her home's in flames
And all she tries's to meet their aims
Tell me, how can a girl survive like this?
When she never has a moment of bliss

"Give me a black rose
I know you shouldn't but who knows
All year I've prayed on my knees
But now, all those comes to these
No one knows my pain
But why are they so vain?
Give me a black rose"

She cries in her room
Blasts music just about doom
What can she do but grab that metal
And use it with what's left of her mental
She played the violin on her bed
Over and over till she saw red
In comes the fool once more
But she didn't find what she was looking for
All she saw was what could've been more

NEW!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I just got a NEW MACBOOK PRO TODAY!! WOOOOOOOOOOO

and I'm usin it now XD HEEHEEHEE

Busy

Sorry for not having time to post the pastfew days. been busy, and I didn't really know what to post about. I'll post up the earth hour pictures soon.

these few days, I've been trying to get every chance I have to stay back in school for practice o.o competition next Friday aaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!! we don't even have our skirts yet. omg

I'm getting sick too. darn. how to sing for the good Friday rally??? damn =_=

Greg Pattillo

One awesome dude at playing the flute and beatboxing at the same time o.o

A Message

RECOVER SOON SHIEN LING!! :D

Missing

I MISS SYF CAST AND THE REHEARSALS!! URGH. Post SYF season :(

Then, SL twisted her ankle or sth. Our class moved down to the rifle range. URGH. Making it harder to forget about SYF coz our panels are JUST IN THE NEXT ROOM @_@ Just 20 steps away from my seat!!!! GAH.

Oh yeah, I got dragged into the Marie (purple) House cheerleading team today =.= Been a LONG time since I crumped, or did any of those steps. Gonna take awhile to get used to @_@ The thing is, I can't let my mother know. And, I have to make do with practices during recess :S ARGH. Also, gotta come up with costume, and more steps. Our song this time is so short!! :( Limit is 5 mins. But ours is only 2 mins+ >< NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hotboyz

Father and Franvera :) Me and Leika ^^

Do you think I look good as a guy? Lol... people were saying I'm "hot", or "handsome", or whatever... I just look good as a guy XD

Wooo... And Sarah and I were the "hot" ones XD And Ash just couldn't stop getting pics with us... HAHA

Justine (little boy, female doctor, Anna's Father), Sarah (Madman, Old Uncle, 16 yr-old boy, villager), Me (Father), Clarissa (Madman, Proud cousin, soldier, villager), Sharley (auntie, soldier, villager/soldier), Andrea (Madman, soldier, auntie, villager), Haziqah (Madman, Anna)

We were joking that Clarissa was my "mistress". Coz I think she looks hot with her make up, and she thinks I look hot with mine. LOL. HOT HOT!! XD She looks better than she does in the picture lah... Well, I uploaded more of the pics on facebook, you can see it here
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=112599&id=590415287&l=d6d76b4d0d

P.S. That was meant as an April Fool's joke. I mean, dude, how in the world can i have a bf? lol... Didn't think you'd have tuition anyway... so yeah.

SYF/April Fool's

Man. Both on the same day o.o I shall brace myself for whatever is gonna be thrown at me today. Well, I'm not gonna be any classes, so I guess that lowers the chances of it :) Umm... I'm like, SUPER wide awake now coz I just had a shower.

Last night, I went to Feb's house to get some hair wax (I actually had to choose okay). He tested the wax on my hair... so yeah. Tried different ways.. Practically having fun lah he... Bunching up my hair, messying it up, combing it with his hand here and there =.= And the wax begfan to dry to a certain point that when he combs it too quickly, it hurts. OMG, YA. He accidentally plucked out a few strands =.= walao... My hair's fallin already ya know...

hahahaha

So in the end I took the Gatsby ((Moving Rubber)) Spiky Edge. Pink colour o.o Slight strawberry smell. I came home, and used my webcam as a mirror... stylin my hair like crazy. XD

Spastic-ness XD

WOOO... See the world... through NO EYES!!! hahaha

And this is the shot I took when I was at his house. One of my faves :) But too girly to be fatherly... if you know what I mean. Then there was once where all my hair was sweeped to my left, and it was jsut standing there... horizontally! Like as if I was being blown by the wind. HAHAHAHA XD

Alright... me shall continue with breakfast then :) SEE YA! And good luck to all those schools whose SYF competitions are also today ^^