Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Talking.

I can't live without talking.
Like, NO KIDDING.

Researching for a presentation, I came to school and did not speak for a day.
It was to record the sort of reactions people gave me.
And also how I adapted to all the weird reactions people gave me.

And by the time I was home, I was suffering.
I listened to music and I had SUCH A FRIGGIN HUGE URGE to start singing.
But I couldn't coz I had to complete my research and not speak for a full day.
Lol...

It came to the point where when I woke up the next morning, I had to remind myself that I CAN talk.
And I started breathing out through my throat first before I started talking to myself to reassure myself that I CAN talk. hahaha

Yeah... I can't live without talking. I need my voice.


I love my voice.



Oh ego...

Day 14 - A hero that has let you down (letter).

I never had one :)
So I'll pass on this topic hehe

Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Green Day,

Thank you for your American Idiot album.
Without it, I would never have gotten through my 13th year alive.

It was a really chaotic year and a lot of things happened to me.
I was crying every other day.
Mother wasn't being all reasonable at home.
Friends were accusing me of things and I lost a couple of close ones and gained a group of enemies.

If it weren't for your song "Give Me Novocaine" that encouraged me to be numb to all the problems going on, I'd have run away from home already.

So thank you Green Day for that really awesome album.
The songs mean a lot to me.



Yours truly,
Lovely Taidy

Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on.

I have no idea really.

Well I suppose....
hmmm...

Actually I don't know.
Well I guess I never get compliments on my negative traits.
haha That much is obvious duh lol.



This is a very short post. XD

Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

There comes a time when people used to compliment me on my artistic talent.
And now that i'm not taking art in UWC, no one says that anymore. And my art skills have all gone down the drain, out of practice.

Then there's a small portion of people who say that I have a good sense of humour.

And then there's another group of people who say I think out of the box.
I'm a lateral thinker.
A unique thinker.

And I guess that's about it.
I'm not a person that gets complimented a lot.
Just a normal person I suppose :)

Day 10 - Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

It's someone I need to let go.
It's been 8 months.
It's someone I must let go.
We had good times.
But fate was against us.
Thank you for the weeks we had.
The hours.
The minutes.
The precious seconds.
Time has moved on.
Pictures are washed away.
My body has moved on.
My mind has forgotten.
My heart has been mended and given.
I must let go.
I know I didn't do this
But I must say, I'm sorry, Josiah.

Day 9 - Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

I'd say, this didn't happen to just one person, but quite a number.

Firstly, there's the people from STC. Ever since I moved out of that school before the O levels, I haven't spoken much to any of them.
I remember drifting away from Phoebe. She was my so-called best friend in Sec 1. But then again that was a chaotic year so never mind.

There are also people from my really old school back in Indo.
Although this friend's family also moved to Singapore, and became my neighbour for a while, we drifted. Somehow, our families just drifted apart. Partly because my mother lost contact with my friend's mother. And his family had some issue... so... yeah...

But then again, with all these years, although I've lost some friends, I've gained more. Just look at where I'm now :) UWC is a great place and filled with great people :)

Day 8 - Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

My mother.



Enough said.

Day 7 - Someone who has made your life worth living for

God has shown me just how fucked up my life was. And He brought me through it. From this experience, I've come out stronger and tougher than ever before. And it's only that I've just realized it. I'm bulletproof. I thought I'd be a basketcase but I guess, no. I did not shed a tear and I'm glad about it. I love God. :)

School

Extended Essay day! I did my essay on "The Kite Runner" and "1984." I had a kite with me on that day but I placed it on another table so it's not in this picture haha

Same day. This was our Korean UN Night technical rehearsals :D He was so glad I was wearing a hanbok hahaha I looked so Korean people couldn't even recognize me lol mmm

Day 6 - Something you hope you never have to do

Wow... Umm... I hope I never have to murder her to prove my point.

Sometimes I just have this urge to storm into the kitchen, grab the first knife I see and just stab that woman with it. Yes this is NOT healthy. I know. But you have no idea how much I'm enduring every day at home. Every second of my life within these walls that I call a prison.

Which is why I don't like to stay at home. I'd rather go out and study than stay home. Because at home, anything can come up. Anything can happen. Anything can arise. And problems will explode in my face like a bomb.

Sigh... People tell me I should express my emotions, tell her how I feel, either by talking to her or writing her a note. Well if I do either of those things, I have to do it in English. And her English isn't very good, and she'll end up not understanding 70% of what I'm trying to say. Frustrating eh? She doesn't even know what "expert" means. Like, whut?

Oh well.