Rubbish.

As bad as this sounds, and you probably don't mean it, and I know you're just using your rationality and logic and whatever part of your brain.

But I feel like a paper towel. Used, torn and tattered. Just ready to be thrown away like nothing after you're done with it.

Do you know what you sound like?
I know you're doing this for our sake.
But are you going to throw away the past year like this?
JUST BECAUSE we will get hurt.
You're not even going to try it out?
You're just going to go head in with what you think you know and decide what you think is right?

The future hurting me, is probably nothing compared to how I feel right now.

You know what I feel like right now?

I feel like this past year is just so that you have someone by your side to accompany you in school because you have a lack of friends and everyone hates you for your past.
But look here.
I don't care about what you did or have done.
I looked past all of that.
The only reason why I cared about it was because you never told me yourself, and I found out from other people.
But then I forgave you for it.
For everything you've done to hurt me.
For all the times you've torn my heart out of my chest.
For the times when you've made me cry.
For all the times when you've given me so much to worry about.

Is this love?
Where I am there for you emotionally.
By your side, because you need me emotionally, and psychologically.

Or am I just someone for you to accompany you for this school year.
To be there for you on graduation night so that you won't be alone.
To satisfy your physical needs.

I want to run head in into this.
Because I love you that much that I am willing to suffer and tear up my heart even more.
Just. For. You.

Are you that afraid of getting us hurt, that you're willing to hurt me more in the process of doing so?

This is history repeating itself all over again...
And trust me, I've been through this, "It's better we end this now before I hurt you more in the future" sort of bullshit.