I Made You Who You Are

Why do I bother getting angry at you?

Am I trying to self-justify?

Does this mean that after all this time, I still feel something?

Maybe.

They say that after you've broken up with someone you can never stay "just friends" because a part of you will still love him/her.

Very true.

But we aren't even friends now. Are we?

Well, the last time we met, I did say that we are friends who just don't talk.

I guess I'll keep it at that.

But why do I always make myself angry at thoughts of you?

That acidic feeling on the back of my throat.

I feel like telling you, in case you've forgotten:

I made you who you are.

I wonder if she knows about me.

Remember the topic of an open relationship?

Share your definition of it with her.

Be open.

Or maybe that's just me being the demanding girlfriend that I was... am...

Maybe it's my ego for daring to say something like this.

But in case you forget and push me away into the back of your memories, you are living with an image of you that you created with my help.

I guess in that sense, I will never leave you.

At times I wonder, what would happen if I were to meet you just randomly on the street?

Would either of us say hi?

Would we wave?

Would we speak?

Would we just walk by as if nothing happened the moment our eyes meet?

Only Chance will grant that meeting.

But I want to tell Chance, that meeting can wait.